Hi, I have been sick for about 3.5 years now. The major thing that I have to get over and know it's a huge issue now is being scared to do things. I just turned down a trip to Costa Rica, that was free for me. My huge concern was that the closest hospital would be 40 minutes away. Pre-POTS I wouldn't have cared how far the closest hospital was, etc. I have improved somewhat though, I now drive by myself in my car to places and can even go into stores alone...My huge fear was that something was going to happen to me, as crazy as it might sound to some people at times it's still very real to me. I remember not leaving my house alone for a year or two and my family would get soo mad and aggravated with me, I guess it's because they felt like they had to babysit me... I personally don't know if I'll be back to my old self again, symptom wise my doctor said that I will have waves where I feel horrible, then waves where I'll feel somewhat normal. I got this condition after having a viral infection, but I truely wonder if I had it before then because I remember always feeling fatigue, malaise, etc. during my years at high school... Very good topic! Jacquie