Ernie Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 Hi,Today is the anniversary of when I lost my "normal" life. I wish I could just go back in time and never take that medication that the doctor gave me and wake up from this nightmare.It's the most difficult day of the year to go through. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 HUGS to you Ernie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sophia3 Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 Sorry Ernie....I hope you can work thru this painful anniversary. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tessa Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 I am sorry, ErnieI hope this day passes by quicklyLove,Tessa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jacquie802 Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 What med caused you to get sick?? Hope the day passes by soon enough for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rachel Posted December 12, 2006 Report Share Posted December 12, 2006 Oh, dear Ernie,I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. Hugs,Rachel Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maxine Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Big Hugs to you Ernie------------------------------I know how you feel---my official anniversary is Dec. 5th, 2000.Another Hug,Maxine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AJVDK Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 (((((((Hugs))))))))) Think of you, hope todays goes quick. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SunsetParadise49 Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 ((((hugs))))) I hope that the day has been flying by for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MightyMouse Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Oh Ernie... I can only imagine. Doubt it helps, but there are folks here who are pulling for you.Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
morgan617 Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Soory ernie, some anniversaries should just never be! morgan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Babettegall Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Ernie,I'm also very sorry that you are having to mourn the loss of the life you once lived.Tomorrow is another day, and you won't have to focus on the dreaded anniversary for another 364 days!Okay, I realize that my words aren't comforting you.......... but, my most sincere heart felt "I'm sorry" and "hugs" are sent your way.Babs Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dizzygirl Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 im sorry ernie potsy anniversaries are tough .. allow yourself to go thru wahtever you are feeling emotionally today.... you certainly have been thru alot! and that is an understatement...Im sorry that you dont have the life you had before all of this...I hope that you find your magic pill or pills soon ernie dear..take care.. sending you some great big gigantoc bear cyber hugs!lovedizz Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
taylortotmom Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Ernie, I think most of us can relate to the pain of mourning our former lives. My "anniversary" is in August and it is a really strange and painful time for me. There are no words I can give you- this is a time when hugs speak louder than words- so if I were with you I would hug you. I'm sorry. It stinks- there is just no way to sugercoat it.Carmen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dizzy Dame Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Ernie, I'm so sorry you had to be reminded of all you've lost. I know it's so difficult when that happens. But today is a new day, and from what I've heard on the forum from your posts, you are improving, slowly but surely. Hopefully in the coming years you'll have a new anniversary to celebrate all you've gained back Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kmpower Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 I am writing this on the next day, so hopefully it passed quickly. I am so sorry that it changed so suddenly for you. I understand. It happened to me the same way and the anniversary is tough."Day after" hugs.OLL Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
corina Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 hi ernie,i wish i could do something to help. i know how you must feel as these kind of anniversaries are the ones that are so painful. if only there would be a solution . . . . i am trying very hard to change the memories of my "happier" life into very dear ones that give me a smile when i think of them. the smiling part is still very hard. i think you know what i mean. know that i'm thinking of you always and that you have a special place in my heart as a very special potspal (okay: that word is "stolen" from emily ).love,corina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ernie Posted December 13, 2006 Author Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Hi,Thank you every one for your support. I knew I could count on you to understand my feelings. Yesderday before I posted I mentioned it to a few people in my hometown and it was as if I was talking about the temperature. I felt so lonesome. When I came home I decided to post because I knew you could validate my pain.Thanks for being there for me.LoveP.S. The medication they gave me was a vasodilator which I took for several weeks. I was telling the doctor that it was making me sick and the doctor was saying that it was impossible. So in those years I thought that doctors were Gods and I continued to take the medication until December 24th where I was sent to the ER by ambulance for severe dehydrataion. I was almost dead because of the diarrhea. So the ER doctor told me to stop the med but it was too late. The damages were already done in my system and I was fainting everytime I was standing up. My blood vessels could no longer contract when I was standing up. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MomtoGiuliana Posted December 13, 2006 Report Share Posted December 13, 2006 Ernie--thank you for sharing your story. I am sorry this is such a painful day for you, and I am so sorry for what happened to you. I am thinking of you. Katherine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gwen Posted December 14, 2006 Report Share Posted December 14, 2006 hi. i'm a day late,so i hope i'm not prolonging it. I know what you mean about people not getting it. especially friends and family. i wish i knew what to do to make people understand. I think thats what makes the ann. so lonely and deeper. If you had cancer, a death of a person or alcholism (not to begrudge them) people would know to give you some slack. I'm afraid sometimes to mention things to my husband because i know he doesn't get it so how can he grieve it. he grieves from his own perspective. take care and hang in there. i appreciate you input on the board and your wisdom from your journey. ah, the way less traveled?!:-) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ernie Posted December 14, 2006 Author Report Share Posted December 14, 2006 Hi GracieYour kind words are greatly appreciated. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JaneEyre9 Posted December 14, 2006 Report Share Posted December 14, 2006 Dear Ernie,I'm sorry to read about your anniversary day. It's so hard to have lost a 'way of living' and think back, wondering if different choices could have saved us such suffering. That is a suffering all in itself. Hugs to you from me. Kristen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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