morgan617 Posted November 15, 2005 Report Share Posted November 15, 2005 As some of you know, I was in the hospital to check for seizures and this neuro guy just blew my world apart. EVERYTHING that's ever been wrong with me is in my head. If I wasn't depressed before meeting him, I sure was after!!!! Well, my pcp has a great deal of respect for him and I haven't seen him since the diagnoses of conversion disorder of everything was given. This man has been my doctor for 22 years. We are the same age. Well, he's two years older. He has heard it all with me. He is so frustrated, trying to help me, and I am so tired of hearing I'm crazy, I just tried to believe it this time. I couldn't, but I tried. Anyway, I was terrified to see him, because I wondered if he was so frustrated he would believe him???? I wouldn't blame him, but he is the only doctor that's stuck by me. This guy is so smart and dedicated. He is an internist and intensivist. He recieved the AMA doctor of the year last year. He told me He would always remember me as his biggest failure, and he takes care of 95% of the sickest people in the pacific northwest. He reads everything I bring him, has done every test available here and tried relentlessly to get me into Vandy, NIH, Cleaveland, you name it. But after so long, it would be so easy to say, okay. she's a nutball after all and just give up on me.So, they call today and have a cancellation, can I come in? Oh my dear, here it is. He was incredible. I told him I wasn't crazy, I was sick. And bless his heart, he totally agreed!!! He stopped listening after the neuro said no seizures. That's all he needed to hear. He said my body was so messed up, he didn't think we would ever know for sure what the "official" diagnoses is, but it's not good. He doesn't care what the heck anyone feels about my emotional state, he knows I'm depressed, who wouldn't be. All he wants is to make me feel better physically. He said, his biggest fear is that he's missing some little thing that could make all the difference with me. He actually has nightmares about it! The entire visit could not have been more positive! He completely acknoweledges something wrong in several areas of my ans, plus many other things. I am not a psych case, and all he wants is to help me. He said I was a wonderful compliant patient and a breath of fresh air to his office. I just burst into tears. He said, don't go getting all double x on me...He's so funny.Anyway, I feel like this huge weight has been lifted. And I just wanted to share. There are really wonderful docs out there among the rotten apples. I've got a gem......morgan p.s. I sent him the article on NASA and he said he was thinking about sending me into space to see if it helped. But till then, a new med, so keep the fingers crossed for me. You are all great, thanks for listening...can'tshutupmorgan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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