Guest tearose Posted January 18, 2011 Report Share Posted January 18, 2011 This happened nearly two months ago. I have been healing since then and wanted to share and spare someone else this ordeal.I am most in balance when I am closest to my sense of "God" which means to walk with unconditional love, trying to manage my symptoms and do for others whatever my energy allows.When autonomic dysfunction took my active life and job away, I lovingly turned to prayer and meditation even more for strength and support. I made the mistake of sharing this with a doctor and wound up in the hospital for observation!!!!Religiousness is considered a symptom of mental illness!!! No one wants to hear about "Holy Spirit" or a Contemplative Spiritual life.I have not been able to share here until now because I was processing the feelings of being so stripped of my sense of self worth, dignity and yet sustained by the grace of the Divine. That some in the medical field believe our dysautonomia symptoms are all "mental illness" and "somatic" is horrific and please be careful if you share that you get strength from God/ or the Divine. Not "looking disabled" has brought me much suffering and others wrong judgement. It is torture enough to not be able to work and support my self and family. Having to constantly defend my illness as a physical disability and not a mental disability is torment. In the hospital, first they forced drugs and I lost consciousness and felt I was talking in my sleep. Then, I refused drugs, and was kept without reason. I was functioning fine and who wouldn't be with all your meals prepared, no chores to do. I did all I could to be a "good patient" but most of my peers on the unit were drugged out of the real world. I was very scared there and did not feel safe.The doctors were all so frustrated since they were wrong! I had no signs of mental illness. They still wanted to medicate me and I refused. I had to get a lawyer and we went to court. The hospital does all they can to humiliate you. They strapped me to a gurney to take me to court. I was misdiagnosed but they had already force admission and gone down a wrong path so they had to face the judge. HOWEVER, the good news is by the grace of all that is HOLY, the Judge said...let this woman go! The Judge said the hospital was wrong. These horrific doctors must learn to differentiate between those who reach to "Spirit" to hear holy, light filled help from a Divine source and those who hear dangerous self derived derangements.I am sorry I haven't been able to write in response to others for awhile...I have been in shock over the ordeal and prayerfully grateful that the ultimate "Judge" came through and the result was proved in court.PLEASE keep the sharing of your Spiritual life contained if you want to avoid a forced hospitalization.Badly bruised but still turning to the light...tearose Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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