Thank you so much for your replies. Deep down, I'm telling myself that it wouldn't be smart to risk getting worse. Right now, I can take care of the kids and function pretty normally. Last night, I felt selfish for even wanting another baby. I have to think about the 2 children I have now ~ and they need me to take care of them ~ not to be deep in a "potshole" how you guys refer to it. I don't know what is causing my POTS. I was diagnosed after having a diagnostic laparoscopy ~ didn't do well with surgery. However, I think I might have had it in a very mild form before that. I think dh will keep his vasectomy and I will come to terms with not having another baby. I think my question stemmed from a lot of my friends having babies and I want one too. Thanks again,