cardiactec, i also feel this way...especially today, so your post really hits home. This is a hard, lonely battle sometimes, and even when we have God and the people around us who care about us, we are ultimately the ones that have to endure the pain, loss, and limitations. It can feel really isolating and discouraging. I find it comforting that others, here on the forum, share these feelings and that i'm not really "alone." There aren't any answers I can offer or quick fixes, but God is always walking beside us, especially in our darkest hours. Kristen