icesktr189 Posted February 20, 2011 Report Share Posted February 20, 2011 I am finding myself crying everyday now because I feel so terrible. I dont think I have true depression, just really depressed about my quality of life.I am going to a counselor, but i dont think they can help me. I am just so sick of this illness. I am TIRED of fighting with my body constantly. My support system is not great and other than my counselor and this site, i really dont talk about it. Honestly, if it were not for my daughter, i would not even bother getting out of bed each day. I am not suicidal or anything, but i feel like i have completely lost hope in having some type of a decent life.I am so tired of not being able to leave my house. i went to target today to get my daughters bday presents (she will be one soon) and of course when i got home i needed a three hour nap. Then i wake up to feeling incredibly dizzy and so weak. I cant stand how i have to pay for everything, including a short trip to target.You would think after three years i would have started to accept this illness, but in truth im just growing more and more resentful. Its just taken away so much and i feel like i will never truly be happy and enjoy anything again.How do you all deal with this everyday? I see some have had it for 20 plus years. The thought of having this that long makes me sick to my stomach. I know there is a slight chance i might not, but there is a bigger chance i will. i just dont know how to feel normal anymore and just becoming more and more depressed/anxious each day. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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