I'm sorry, I know how you feel. I have been spending way too much time sitting on my couch feeling sad lately. I don't know what the weather is like where you live but getting outside in the sun even if I'm just sitting has been helping to get me out of my funk. Also I always feel better when I do something productive, even if I just unload the dishwasher. I'm really sorry your having such a rough time, I hope you feel better soon. You can PM me if you want .