dizzygirl Posted May 1, 2006 Report Share Posted May 1, 2006 hello folks--i've been thinking over the past week or so after my last dr;s appoint.. and the discussion that we had.. and have had a few times in the past about.. pots and pregnancy..I have been debating wheather or not to post about it b/c it upset me.. and I know that this topic has come up before... but I really need to get this off my chest. this is what my docsa re telling me about my indivudual case of pots.. and how a pregnancy would be for me.. its different for everybody..Like I said I had a pcp app. and we were talking about birth control options.. and more speciafically. that we need to get a grip on my non exsistant periods..b/c I mean like I dont have them hardly ever! i mean areal period that is.. (and most of the time not even spotting).. and can go about 15 month or so with out one..but getting to my point.. I can NOT use birth control pills b/c of my BP and HR and stuff.. a chance that we are not willing to risk .. and the "store bought" birth control cant use that either.. my doc went on to tell me for the 100th time.. and really drove it home.. that it is very unsafe for me -not to mention a fetus- if i got pregnant.b/c my HR and BP and POTS ingeneral is very unstable(Spiking BP's.droping BP and very unstable HR's).. and that I can not go off my meds b/c chances are that I would get totally non functional.. and would mostly likely spend a pegnancy in the hosiptal.. and that if I stayed on my meds that it could cause some serious birth defects in a fetus-- that is if my body didnt naturally abort...not to mention that docs think that it is very unsafe for me to get pregnant b/c of uncertainty of what the stress of a pregnancy would do to me... its rough on healthy women..I guess it really hit home with me today.. my best friend since childhood gave birth to her 4th child last night.. a beautiful baby boy! so very cute.. and the reality hit me that i may not get that chance to be amother..to carry a child.. something that i want more then anything in this world..I'm very happy for my friend.. she is a fantastic mom!.. but it makes me feel sad too..and i cried..i feel as POTS.. and whatever else is going on that they are able to identify yet.. is going on that it is robbing me of a life.. robbing me of my dreams.. I guess in part i am feeling sorry for myself... but I keep getting worse and worse.. not better...POTS has taken so much from me..my shot at a carreer to build s table future financially.. education.. and sometime I wonder waht i've done wrong in my life to have to live with such suffering...daily... i was a good girl growing up.. and in general-I normally have a better outlook on this.. considering that i've lived with it my whole life.. but today i do not..I then think that maybe for now its best that i dont have children b/c i cant provide the kind of life for them that I would want my child or children to have.. not living on disability.. and that how would I care for a infant. the toddler years..the teenage years when i can barely get off the couch to pee ...I guess that i felt that if i couldnt work or go to school then i could raise a child.. maybe i was unrealistic to think this.. but i did and have..and i dont know who to talk about this.. other then you guys b/c I know that you all will really get what i am saying. and feeling.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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