My heart goes out to you and is also with you. I am in a similar situation. My husband and I are divorcing and I am having to move back in with my father and step-mom back home in IL. I currently live in Texas with my husband. I have no idea how I am going to have the strength to go through this but I realize it is the best thing for me, for him, and for us. While it may one of the hardest things I have to go through, I know I have to go through it. I know I am strong enough and I know you are too. We each have an amount of strength in us that we don't even realize. I know you have the strength and the courage you need. You may have to dig deep. I don't know if you journal or not but I would highly recommend journaling. It has helped me through some of my darkest times. I know you are with your parents and I hope you have a great support in your family and, if so, take comfort in that. Embrace their love and support. Realize that things may be horrible right now but you will get better. Your life will get better. You will live. If everything seems like it is at the lowest point, then it can only get better from here, right? I am here for you. DINET is here for you. You are NOT alone. Keep the faith!