Please listen to this, I just found out about having pots, but I have had this since I was 17! The hardest times in my life were not knowing why I was going Crazy! I thought about nothing else except how how was ruining things for my husband and two beautiful daughters ( at the time ) I ended up being house bound, due to the overwhelming anxiety I would have by doing something normal. After the birth of my 3rd daughter my post partum was horrific and then it seems like my symptoms came back full fledged...I was crying, I felt the whole why us! What did I do that my family has to deal with a gimpy mom...like what the heck!i sat in my bathroom with the door locked for over an hour deciding if my staying earth bound was worth it for my kids....you know what. It is the biggest reason. think of your Lil ones eyes and the love you have for her. I wanted to prove that I was stronger, I pushed back. On my good days I took them. If I have to figure 1 good,2 bad. I'll tke it.slowly but surely I was able to conquer the postpartum and even better.....the anxiety! Even on my worst days, I would lie in bed and lock everything I needed for the day in my bedroom and made the best of it. We all have those. Moments. I can understand having no family around mine also are not around. Where you from? Please seek help about this. Having everything just seeming one thing after another can cracks even the strongest of us. I am here to chat if you want to pm me. Tara