morgan617 Posted September 1, 2005 Report Share Posted September 1, 2005 My friend took me to the doctor today. I will never drive again after the last few weeks.As most of you know, I have been pretty discouraged. My friend went as an advocate for me, because I have really been so sick, I have no fight left in me. She is terrified of my doctor. He is very very bright and sometimes can seem gruff, but is really a big old (albeit, very cute) teddy bear.Anyway, I burst into tears, which he can hardly stand. Then of all things, I had one of my "episodes" right in front of him so he got to see one first hand. Since My brain appears to leave my body during these things, I don't have enough sense to get anxious. I just interrupted and said, I need to lie down, it's too hot. It's like 52 below zero in his office. He and Carol laid me down and he was talking, but I have no idea what he was saying, as my brain was gone. He asked me if I was with him and I went umhm or something and he got up and took my bp and then sat me up. Carol said I wasn't sitting up she was holding me up.They laid me back and then my pounding heart kicked in and he could SEE it, so he listened. I recovered somewhat and said something like thank God it was just a little one.She said he looked like he was going to cry. For some reason I am unable to focus on anything during these episodes, my eyes just move all over the place and won't stay still.The upshot is: he's putting me on hydrocortisone for a week at 60 mgs a day. If there is no improvement or I get worse, He is putting me in the hospital and forcing every doctor in this town to consult on me and try to figure things out. hmmmHe is certain I have a neuro cardiogenic problem, but reminded me that there is no one around here smart enough to know anything about it, including him. He talked about going to Vancouver, but I really don't think I could travel at this point. My friend said I need Dr. House (do any of you watch that show?) and he said he was supposed to be him and I said well he was sure cranky enough. He burst out laughing.Anyway, that's where we are. I am glad I had one in front of him, but embarrassed because I know I look and act really weird. I told Carol I was sure now he would think I was nuts and she said she had sooo much respect for him because he looked devastated that he couldn't help me, and she would never think by anyway he acted that he thought I was a nut. He did say, I had been his patient for 20 years and he knew me inside out and he knows I am really deteriorating right in front of his eyes. He said I was a little flaky but i have been so blanking sick for so blanking long, that he couldn't imagine me not being a little flaky. He can't see me w/o telling me once or twice I'm flaky. But I thought it was a good visit, although I missed most of it because I was in outer space. He is apparently going to get pretty aggressive here. Then tomorrow I have to get a tooth pulled that I broke when I fainted. Ilovemybodymorgan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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