Lisa,
Do not apologize for being negative or needing to vent. This is the place to do it because most of the world has no idea what we go through. I too suffer from GI issues. Most people do not understand how debilitating it can be or how bad it makes you feel. Most people don't understand just how crappy we feel on a daily basis and that in the midst of feeling crappy, we are still working, trying to be spouses or parents, and trying to maintain a household. Ever day is a battle. But know that I understand. Know that you are not alone. And remember, not only do we deal with the physical aspects of the disease but the emotional aspect of having a chronic illness and the worry about what the next day brings. Hugs to you and feel free to contact me if you ever need to chat.