baby_boy Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 Today has felt like the best day of my life.I started colledge yesterday, but didnt turn up due to a massive anxiety episode that left me scared and upset, so i called in sick. Today i went to colledge and faced all my fears, at first it was hard, then i said to myself:'Your hear now, if you collapse on the floor theres help around, stop looking for escape doors and just sit down a shut up, this is your future, dont let you mind mess it up'I actually said something like that in my head. I calmed down, sipped regular ammounts of water and got on with it. The anxiety levels automaticlly dropped, and everything felt normal, i could speak aloud infront of people, i could walk down small corridors and not get scared. I had the od skipped/extra heart beat that sent the odd cough through the quite room, but apart from that i felt and feel great.Its been about a year since i left the house alone, for me this is a major step and im actually excited and proud. I now walk a mile to the buss stop to save on catching 2 busses and save money, instead of walking to the bustop outside my house (if i catch that id need to get 2 buses and costs money )a litle bit of self strenght can go far!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hayley Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 im so happy for you.It has actually cheered me up reading your post. I am also starting college tomorow.Very scared as im not sure how i will cope.My walking stick has become a permanent fixture lately.I am only going for three and half hours a week.Are you going full time.keep going and never give up.take care.h x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JaneEyre9 Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 That's great news! It's so wonderful when we are able to exceed our expectations of what our body can handle. I know breaking through those barriers is quite a feeling. It may seem small to someone else, but it feels like a party to us when we can finally do something "normal" that we've wanted to do for a long time.Congrats and thanks for sharing!Kristen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
baby_boy Posted September 13, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 Hi thanks for that Yes im going full time. My next day is thursday. My english lesson is on the A Block, low floor, i just hope the rest of my lessons are. Im doing 4 hours a day, so its not that much really. Well colledge has been well, ive had the odd chest pain, since being home, and the anixety has been present ever since ive been on this PC. I actually think its doing more harm them good.I also noticed since i been back water hasnt been regular. Talking of that ill go get a glass.I hope you day at colledge goes down well. How come you need a walking stick? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dawn Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 Good for you!!!!!!!!!!! Like my cousin always says "when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain to change, people change."Keep up the good attitude, it makes all the difference in the world. I try to crank up my sense of humor. So we faint, we panic, we vonit. The other night I went out to eat with 3 of my friends I haven't seen in months- major panic set in, I ended up with syncope lying on the sidewalk outside of the restaurant for 1/2 hour. People walked by me thinking I was drunk, I just commented "the marguaritas are wonderful."Don't be discouraged by a setback, like everyone, we'll have some days that are worse than others. Keep up the good work.Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
persephone Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 well done! that's great!!! I should add that I used to faint in classes all the time at uni--my tutors were lovely, used to cover me in blankets and read shakespeare to me til I felt better, and then getch me a nice cup of tea (SO st andrews though!)If anything untoward happens, there are always people who know what to do. So don't feel frightened Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poohbear Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 I'm so glad you were able to conquor some of your fears. Keep moving forward and doing the best you can....you'll reach your goals!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Finrussak Posted September 13, 2005 Report Share Posted September 13, 2005 I too have had SEVERE panic attacks....over the years they come and go...I am SO IMPRESSED by your inner strength!!! I know exactly what you feel and it took so much for you to perservere...keep going you can do it!!!Finette Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Evie Posted September 14, 2005 Report Share Posted September 14, 2005 oh congratulations thats wonderful that must feel wonderful to be getting on top of your anxiety! Did you get classes you enjoy and a good timetable? (sorry just thought id throw in some normal non health related questions) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
baby_boy Posted September 14, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 14, 2005 Hi all may i take a few moments to thank you all, your support has been wonderful!My timetable is:Monday: English Litrature (4 HOURS)Tuesday: History (4 HOURS)Wednesday: DAY OFF!Thursday: English (4 HOURS)Firday: Maths (4 HOURS)Plus i gotta doa tutorial and an Hour I.T lesson, dunno when that is though. If non of you already guessed, im trainning to be an English teacher, just as well becuase i hate Maths! but its compulsery. Im expected to pass 4 out 6 assignments at a level 3 in maths, thats an A-LEVEL standard! Thats gonna be the hardest part of it all, studying and making sure i get the points i need for university. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hayley Posted September 14, 2005 Report Share Posted September 14, 2005 hey,i need a walking stick because my balance is way off and i have eds III so i have bad joint pain.take care.h x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aprilmarie52 Posted September 14, 2005 Report Share Posted September 14, 2005 I am so glad that you went to class. Sometimes the best thing for you is to do what you are dreading. I hope your classes go well for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
baby_boy Posted September 15, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 15, 2005 Hayley, Is it not possible to go under treatment for you 'Off Balance' issue? Anyway all im off to colledge today, ill inform you on how my day went! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hayley Posted September 15, 2005 Report Share Posted September 15, 2005 hey,no it isnt possible ive given up on doctors,i just get on with things now.hope you have a good day at college.take careh x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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