lildia

Hi! I’m feeling more alone than usual I was diagnosed with POTS officially in August 2018. I am in my senior year of college, literally my last semester but it has been a living h***. At this point I’ve missed so much class that going to class stresses me out incredibly. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder March 2017, but I think it could be POTS. I’m definitely having panic attacks regularly along with POTS symptoms. Whats bothering me the most right now is my sinuses, I’ve been getting ear infections/sinus infections since I was a toddler. However, they seem to be getting a lot worse. I had surgery that seemed to help for a little bit in 2016. The only thing that helps the nausea is weed and fluids (obvi salt). I’m not functioning anymore, not even sure if I ever really was. I guess what I’m looking for is if addiction, substance abuse has ever been a part of your story and how are you coping with things? also, I’ve noticed I’m getting these like extra skin patches (?) at the corner of my pith. When I searched online, it seemed to be a symptom of diabetes but ive been tested several times and diabetes has never really been a conversation. Also, how do you deal with the guilt? And the weight gain instead of loss?

Clutter is my biggest problem, especially with pots. Growing up, my mom’s hoarding coincided with a lot of trauma in our lives. Unfortunately, it seems I’ve inherited the coping mechanism. Did the book help? I’m really tired of not being able to let go of things I know are just for sentimental value.

Gamer! I love the Blizzard games, star dew valley, and I’ve been in to some phone games recently. I find that handhelds are best for potsie days bc I can play them lying down :).