Scout,
I'm so sorry you're having to fight this battle. Coping is very hard. I'm going to assume you're a teenager because you mentioned how you were "young". Let me tell you something about POTS. A majority of people who acquire POTS during their teen years get better with time. I remember feeling scared and so misunderstood as an undiagnosed teen. Your path is going to be a bit different than the norm, but I'm sure once you see that specialist and begin treatment, things will get better. There's hope. A lot of people with POTS have to go through a similar challenge- having doctors not take them seriously, being told it's anxiety even though it quite obviously is physical. So please, know that you're not alone, that there's hope, and things will get better with time. I was diagnosed with POTS at 16 years old (it took 2 years to get that diagnosis), i was bedbound most of high school, but now that I'm in my early twenties, things are a lot easier. I still get episodes here and there, but compared to how things used to be, life is a lot easier. When you feel down, just remember that this isn't forever.