houswoea Posted March 8, 2011 Report Share Posted March 8, 2011 Lately I've been processing all that's happened since I got sick. I have nightmares about last year when I was really having problems. I dream about passing out and waking up for a moment and not being able to tell anyone what is wrong or what I am feeling. I try so hard, but I can't do it. In my dreams, my mind is screaming and yelling at my mouth to just move already, talk! But I can't, and then I dream I pass out again and wake up in the hospital and the same thing happens again. This happened more than I want to remember. But some part of me recalls what happened I guess! I don't like to think that tomorrow I could feel that way again- a captive of my body. Tomorrow I could be so sick people will have to carry me to the bathroom and I won't be able to stand on my own or say what I want to say. I don't think it will happen, but it could. And if not tomorrow, the next few years, and if not the next few years, some time in my life... How do you deal with the fear of crashing again? I see a counselor, which helps, and I know Jesus, which also helps (because I know He'll be with me regardless and that He's in control). I don't want to live in fear, and I choose not to. But I was wondering if you guys have any strategies? Or are you all scared too? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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