Hi :-), thank you so much both of you for replying! I'm so sorry I didn't post earlier but I just wanted to say thank you! Wendy- I'm so encouraged by what you said about how it could better after birth :-). thsnk you for your encouragement and suggestions about how I can keep baby entertained :-). that's so great you were able to have a baby shower, my friends want to do something for me but I just don't think I can handle it for now but isn't it so wonderful to have friends who wanted to do that for you :-), I'm so thankful for my friends just wanting to throw one for me :-). thank you again for your encouragements! I just needed to know there are other moms that are getting through this . Take care :-D!