Hi, I know how you feel. I have been dealing with POTS now for about 2 1/2 years. I was going to college and was in Nursing school when I got sick. I was also very physically fit adn participated in many sports. The first year was extrememly hard for me dealing with everything that I had lost. I still feel a deep loss, but I realize that this is my life now and I have to make the best of it. I have a wonderful family husband and 2 girls. My extended family is very helpful and supportive. Out biggest concern at the moment is finances. We lost our house because of this. I have been waiting for SSD for 26 months now. I just had my Hearing after being declined two times. I am hoping that I get approved it would really help my depression and feeling of worthlessness. WEll I hope your condition levels out soon, and you start feeling better. God Bless, Jen