i suffer with insomnia. i take trazadone to help me fall asleep. when i wake up in the morning i am exhausted. i take care of my toddler's needs then head to the bathroom for a "potty time", a cigarette and a gulp of pepsi. suddenly i feel myself "disconnecting". i am staring off into space. i hear everything around me, but "distant and soft. i feel incredibly calm. my arms are heavy. i don't feel my heart beating in my chest. i want to close my eyes and drift off to sleep. i feel as if all the blood has drained to my feet and i couldn't stand up if i wanted to, but i don't. sometimes, i can't move my eyes from what i'm staring at. sometimes i have the sensation that one of my ears has "shut off" and is replaced by a "tone" that varries in it's pitch and volume. some times there's a feeling that things have tilted slightly but i just missed seeing it or i saw it out of the corner of my eye. 20 to 30 seconds of this and then, BAM!, i am looking around frantically, my heart is beating furiously, i begin to sweat and i have to move my bowls. i am shaky, weak, and scared to death. then just as quickly i'm ok and worried about what's wrong with me. all this time i'm sittin on the pot! so, i have been tested for: petite mal seizures, panic attacks, diabedes, meinier's, POTS, and thyroid disease. all negative so far. any suggestions or similarities?
