Hi Ling, On the bad days, you'll tuck your baby in bed with you and roll over and gentle nurse her. It works, I know. I have three wonderful children from 15 years old down to 7. Each pregnancy was different. My first one I was on lots of meds, the second one I was on lots of gatorade and by number three things were actually pretty uneventful. For me, I go in cycles, some good days (or months) followed by very difficult periods. But my kids (and husband) are terrific. They know Mom can't do some things -- but we can cozy up together around a good movie or a book. We roast marshmellows in the backyard, and we all enjoy quiet moments in nature. Find a doctor who supports your desires. I went through dozens, who used lots of threats and warnings .... "You had better stop nursing your baby now because you need to be back on this or that medication ...." But I finally found a group of OB's Cardiologists and a general practitioner who know my preferences and who all agreed to work with me to have children. Keep on keeping on. Good thoughts your way, EarthMother
