Hello everyone, I have been not in attendance on the site for a long time. Or should I say I have not posted ion a while. I am very depressed and saddened again because today I felt something I never expirienced. I was in line at the college book store and my heart took off it was beating really fast and then when I felt my pulse there was none for a brief second and then it came back really fast. I got so scared and ran out and lokked for the water fountain. I was scared out of mind and when I left I was in full tears crying all the way to my car. I could not really breath and was really in fear for my life. I thought my life could be back on track but Im thinking about dropping the classes and returning the books. Am I fooling my self or what? I even suppose to start a new telemarketing job next week and wanted to take a few classes but fear is trying to control me. I feel like giving up and lay here in my nest or safe haven and just say forget about it. Please God, I really want a shot at life and would love to be just normal. Excuse my sobbing but I just want this to go away....