Breathe! I've been there before...feeling as though I had no control over my own body. Since you're recovering anyway, just take things slowly. And new meds or therapies can help you get past the fear, too. Knowing you have something/someone on your side, like an army, helps. And everybody else has had good suggestions. Make sure you talk to your dr about blacking out. Anything that might help! It's definitely scary, but it sounds like you've calmed down a little looking back on things. You'll learn your symptoms better, and maybe know when you're going to pass out. Even if it's only a few seconds before, it helps a lot. Good luck! Meg