How do you do it? How do you keep yourself in a positive frame of mind? After 10 years of this, I am tired of being exhausted every single day. I am bored to death. I can't find anything to do that I can focus on long enough to accomplish. I have seen counselors, who don't really seem to understand and their advice of be happy for the little you can do, just doesn't work for me. No matter how hard i try, telling myself to be happy when I feel well enough to go sit on the porch, just doesn't cut it. Although I have no intent or desire to ever try and harm myself, I would be ok with getting sick and being gone in the near future. How do all of you keep yourself happy, sane and wanting to keep living like this?