Hi Navy Blue, Big hugs! I've felt the same way. Last winter was rock bottom for me too - I felt so sick, spent a lot of days on the couch, fell behind in school and had no idea what was wrong and how to get better. The diagnosis does help, but I think it's completely normal to go through times when you are angry and sad and everything in between. Or at least it's normal for me! I go through that when I relapse, especially when I had been doing really well and it just knocks me down. The last week has been like that for me. Last night, I made myself go to the gym because I know it's good for me, and I looked around at all the athletes and thought about the 'old me' that was an athlete and wanted to cry. I have found going to see a counsellor helpful. It's not only good to vent, but have someone acknowledge that it's okay to feel this way, and brainstorm some coping mechanisms to get you through the tough time. It's also really important to show yourself some empathy and compassion. It's easier to do that for others than ourselves. Hang in there. Positive thoughts your way.