hiya, i'm very variable too, with good and bad days although i always struggle during winter months. technically i can select all of them. i'm technically able to work but i'm only capable of working 3 hours a week. any more and i get really sick- unfortunately i realised this the hard way. i used to be able to work full time but since 2007 my health has been gradually deteriorating so i'm just glad i'm allowed to do a few hours a week work and stay on employment and support allowance benefit so with the 2 i manage to live on the breadline rather than under it. work are really good about me needing to change the day i work, the time etc even at very short notice, and i can take as many sick days as i need without any of them counting towards my 4 allowed incidences before we get disciplined (as they're disability related they're classed as one incidence no matter how many i take). these are the main reasons why i'm able to work (that and its very close in the car... only 10mins). otherwise i'd be totally unable to work. i was very lucky to get the job, it was through one of my church pals who also works there. she heard that the newly built office was looking for disabled staff as they didnt have any and they needed at least one to meet their company's criteria (huge company, but new office (inside a beautiful garden centre, its so nice! ). and the person had to also be experienced, good at their job etc so i was put forward for it. i'm technically able to exercise and particpate in sport, but only using my wheelchair and i need to take a lot of breaks. and needs to be a sport where the activity level isnt too high for more than a few mins at a time or i pass out. i play wheelchair badminton and it seems to be working so far. and it helps that the centre is literally round the corner from my flat! i experience symptoms when i exercise but as i also experience benefits (it seems the fitter i get the better my body is at coping with flare ups, especially those that come from viruses) so i just take it easy and make sure i listen to my symptoms and go lay down if i get too near to fainting. and take my salt with me and drink loads of water to pump up my blood pressure! as for going out- i dont go out that often, and actively try and stay indoors in summer cos i get heatstroke super quick (even living in the uk , dread to think how you guys in hotter parts of the world struggle with the heat!) so i cant go very far. i'm mostly housebound, even though every week i do go out for badminton round the corner and get a lift to church once a week. apart from that i dont go out and able to take my laptop home from work so i dont need to go into the office every week. go in every few weeks to catch up. i get my groceries delivered to me, and get anything else i need to buy delivered. the local chemists deliver my prescription medications to me. any errands i try and do via the phone or online, or a friend or family member will go do it for me. as i pay all my bills via direct debit and use online banking, i dont have many errands to do in person every month. used to have loads but over the past year i've been doing all i can to minimise the effort of sorting them all out etc. i dont have children and so this reduces my outdoor chores quite a lot, well at the moment. at one point i'll probably have them as i want kids eventually. i like to socialise but most of it is at church at the moment (after mass, we have coffee and a chat with my pals and get a lift back home),or after badminton (as i need a break before i can make the journey home, (even though it is only round the corner) so we go up to the social room and make ourselves tea (or in my case, juice so i dont dehydrate. i've been banned from dehydrating fluids after exercise by my badminton pals cos i freaked them out by fainting... oops ) and my pals usually come to me so i dont have to go out . and socialise loads via the internet and mobile telephone- can talk for hours, as long as i talk laying down to stop me fainting! and generally i've been coping better lately cos i now have a carer a few hours a week (in addition to what mum does for me, cos i have to pay and can only afford a little). it's great to have regular care now so get washed and dressed, get my housework done and any local chores (like popping to local shop for more toilet paper, or to post a letter etc), it means i dont have to do as much that stresses out my autonomic nervous system so *touch wood* i dont faint as much as i used to and generally feel a little less exhausted. i expect thats why i'm able to do the badminton- 6 months ago (before care started) i was always so exhausted that even breathing seemed like strenuous exercise! oops, sorry for the essay! the more tired i am the more my mind rambles and posts get longer and longer and longer...... oh, and just realised i forgot my evening meds. ooops..... fi xx