I just want to thank eveyone for their input... I made an appointment with my doctor to discuss the issue, but thank you all for just making me feel like i am not totally nuts. in response to how my friends and family take it, they dont think it is as bad as it can get at times and just kind of blow me off and tell me that tomorrow will be a better day, so support is not something i get a lot of. i guess there are a lot of other things contributing to my mood, but i think being sick is a big part... i did notice that i have been worse since the medication so hopefully my doctor will see this. also one of my close friends is leaving for the military, and i truly love him. this has a big impact on me lately and im just to the point i want to collapse and stay in bed all day... i dont want to be all "poor me" but this is all my life and all i can deal with. i have one good friend to support me and i guess that is what gets me to go from day to day. anyway.. thanks again everyone... u guys are the best