I love house. So many times when I have watched it I hear them mention a med I am on. Thank you for your honesty about not wanting to live, I feel more people feel that way , but just haven't said anything. I understand how you feel when people don't believe you. My parents and older brother disowned me because I coudln't get out of bed without passing out. Said it was all in my head, even though I was an active child, a lifeguard, hiker, biker etc... why would I want to lay flat all the time. Hang in there and now I do understand what you are going through and I care. Hope your day today is going to be good.