I end up feeling guilty a lot also. Every time I have an appt my husband has to take off of work. Some times I feel like he thinks I'm lazy because I can't keep up with the chaos of my life and keep the house spotless and have dinner on the table. I draw my strength from my closest friends. I always felt he should be my #1 support system but I've found he just doesn't get it. My kids are 6,5,2, and 1. I can barely muster the energy to keep up with them much less all the other daily tasks that go along with it. I can say that when I do have a crisis I have VERY dependable friends who do understand and will cover for me. The last time I passed out I was walking in my neighborhood with my 2 kids in the stroller. I made 1 phone call to a friend when the ambulance got there and I had someone to pick up my babes and rides lined up for my older 2 after school. There is a MOMS club in our area that is organized through a Yahoo group. You should see if there is one in your area. It's a support group for moms and has been my saving grace. I've met some of my best friends through that group. I so understand the need to vent and I'm so thankful to all my friends who have listened to me vent over the years. Brye