i have never posted before. my doctor thinks i might have a problem with dysautonomia, although he has no idea. i have been to one hundred specialists and they have all laughed at me, and told me not to "worry about it" my problem is this. its very hard to explain. it feels like my skin is burning, like someone has set me on fire and im burning to death. i am always so hot i cannot breath and it hurts to have anything on my skin. i cant sleep or lie down because is burns my back, i cant do anything at all. even just sitting here, with no clothes on, in the middle of winter, i am so hot all i can do is scream and scream and scream. i have to work too and its unbearable, all i do is cry and scream it hurts so much and no one can do anything. i dont actually have a temperaure and every doc i have ever been to says they have never heard of it. i dont know what to do. i have a boyf and a best friend i love dearly but i just dont want to live anymore. the worst of it is just about 2 years ago i finally recovered of years of **** from depression and suicide and drug addiction, i finally got my life somewhat together, fell in love, was happy... now i have no relief. NOTHING gives me two seconds of relief. not even a freezing icy shower, or standing naked in the 0 degrees in a hail storm. not weed...not even a high dose of heroin helps. which freaks me out no one understands and i dont know what to do. i have tried about one million meds. i even went of my psyiciatric meds in case that was the cause. i changed my diet, did everything right, abnd nothing helps. the weird thing is sometimes it goes away, completely for a few weeks, and i get a bit of hope, and then hits my back in the face soon after that. there is no correlation between it and stress or diet or anything. i have searched. it started about a year and a half ago, mild...my doctor kept telling me it will go away, it has just progressed, and im terrified it will get worse. i took this week off work. but i cant just stop working. i have about half a million bottle of pills i am ready to take any time soon. i dont want to die, but living in this **** any longer is just not going to happen. thanks for listening APC 2012@nodeception.com