Feeling Sad

[sstephan]

Hello,

I am writing a post just to vent a little bit. I am a teacher and I am going back to work in a week. I am feeling down for a few reasons:

I have been home with my daughter all summer. She is going back to daycare shortly and I am going to really miss spending the time with her! It has been so great watching her grow and develop this summer. This transition back seems harder than last summer. (she is almost two)

Also my POTS flares seem to worsen when I am stressed and trying to manage the balacing act. My principal is pretty understanding, yet I end up missing a fair amount of days between myself and my daughter having to stay home due to fevers, etc. It is also difficult to deal with POTS symptoms in front of my students. I am seeing a specialist this week for the sphincter of oddi spasms, but there is no way I can just continue to teach if I am experiencing one. My principal is used to me coming into his office to lie down and relax while my heart is racing or I am having a pain spasn, yet I am scared that he will ask me to go on disability. This has been going on the past two years and how understanding can he be? I really do love to teach and I love seeing my students everyday. But my symptoms are much worse when I am stressed out. I am really sad about leaving my daughter and not sure if I am up to handling another busy chaotic stressful school year.

Just needed to sort out my feelings here.

Hope everyone is feeling well,

Susan

[KellyErnst]

You are very courageous to keep teaching and I know how difficult it is to be apart from your daughter. My daughter is 15 and she is leaving me as a teenager in different was than a toddler but the feeling for a mother are the same. But everyday when she share her life experiences with me I am glad that I am setting her free to see the world and I reminded that I have done a wonderful job raising her. I try everyone to give myself positive rewards and keep thinking that I will control and beat this condition.

Please know I am thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way. Put your net out and catch them.

Kel

[samannran]

Hi. I know how you feel. I'm a fourth grade teacher, and I dread another school year of feeling bad. I've not been diagnosed with POTS, although I have the symptoms. I have NCS, orthostatic hypotension, two leaky valves, and migraines. I've also had an ablation. This will be my second year to teach. I have never talked to my principal about my health problems because I'm afraid to. The teachers on my hall know what to do if I faint. Fortunately, that has not happened yet. My daughter is going into 5th grade, but I dread not getting to spend time with her, too. I guess that we are fortunate to have a little time during the summer in between inservices. I hope that you have a wonderful school year!

Samantha