d4g7 Posted November 14, 2005 Report Share Posted November 14, 2005 (edited) I'm only new to this forum, and have had some great advice from all of you, but today, I am so severly depressed, I just want to give in.If anyone has read my posts, you will see I've had the most awful month ever. Apart from the daily grind of living with POTS, and finding it hard to get up in morning, hard to focus on anything in the morning, erratic heatbeats at the drop of a hat, and fainting without any notice;I've also had a POTS related outburst directed towards my family - which is still unreconciled, and from my first post is something that most of us have experienced.I've been charged for drunk driving, for just getting something out of my car and walking home - which will then lead to me loose my licence as I can't afford to go to trial, so am forced to plead guilty, and of course will then loose my job, and I can't get anyone to see reason; and on top of that, one of the only things that brought me joy was being able to play the great highland bagpipe, which cost me over $10,000.00 and has this week broken, and I don't have the money to fix it.Someone kicked in the front of my car, and someone tried to mug me!I have to go to court to try and defend myself on Monday for walking home! However, due to mandatory sentancing, I will have to plead guilty and loose my licence.I just don't know where to turn. None of my family live anywhere near me (in fact they live in different countries), my only friends are my work colleagues, and after I get fired for not being able to drive, I'll soon loose them.I live in a house that I won't be able to afford on the dole.I'm sorry guys, just have to let it out.I'm so fed up.Maybe I'll wake up in the morning, blurry and slow as usual, and things may seem better, but I somehow doubt it.Is there any hope anywhere??? Edited November 14, 2005 by Sunfish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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