Overwhelming sense of dread

[blizzard2014]

I was wondering if any of you have had an overwhelming sense of doom or dread. Sometimes so bad it feels like its burning a hole inside your stomach. I get this even with a normal HR and normal BP. It feels like impending doom but I am not anxious or having anxiety from Autonomic Symptoms. It's really weird. My symptoms are still present when standing, but they have not been causing me any discomfort due to the weather being so cold still. I know they dizziness and having to sit down more will come once full on summer hits. That is when I can have the same 130 BPM HR and it will make me so unwell I have to sit down, where it doesn't even phase me in the winter time.

I had two weeks of full on flu-like symptoms. I had sore body, it hurt everywhere. I even had to leave my jobs early. I completed the work good enough not to get a customer complaint, but not as good as I am paid to clean. I had to leave an hour early for two days in a row and work extremely slowly to even be able to continue working. I really wanted to call in sick, but didn't. The symptoms were just as bad as they were before I had my Gallbladder removed and had very low kidney function in the low 30's. This week has been much better. During the last work day things were this bad,  I didn't even bother taking my extra pain pill because I knew it wouldn't help me. I knew it would be a waste of time. I just went home.  But this sick feeling was probably low kidney function and not Dysautonomia. Maybe it's time to move to Alaska for 24/7 winter weather lol. Any how, I hope everyone is doing ok. I took on another job. One more hour a week to clean a forth building. Wish me luck. I hope I'm not biting off more than I can chew.

 

[Pistol]

Dear @blizzard2014 - I am familiar with a certain sense of doom when I am about to go into a seizure or faint but it never lasts long ( usually stops with the drop - lol ). So I am wondering if this could be  panic attack? You have so many medical problems that maybe your body is letting you know something is wrong? I really would notify your doctor of this right away since it needs to be investigated, especially since you noted the same feeling when you were acutely ill with low kidney function and gallbladder problems. A simple blood test might shed light on it. -- I had noted that you haven't posted anything lately and was hoping this was because you were better. Sorry that that is not the case. Please see your doctor and take care of yourself!!!

[blizzard2014]

31 minutes ago, Pistol said:

Dear @blizzard2014 - I am familiar with a certain sense of doom when I am about to go into a seizure or faint but it never lasts long ( usually stops with the drop - lol ). So I am wondering if this could be  panic attack? You have so many medical problems that maybe your body is letting you know something is wrong? I really would notify your doctor of this right away since it needs to be investigated, especially since you noted the same feeling when you were acutely ill with low kidney function and gallbladder problems. A simple blood test might shed light on it. -- I had noted that you haven't posted anything lately and was hoping this was because you were better. Sorry that that is not the case. Please see your doctor and take care of yourself!!!

Pistol. I did go through a two month period of severe depression. It happened after my pain doctor without notice reduced the amount of pain meds they are giving me. I detoxed and tried to make it without meds and ended up in pain and going back to the meds. I just reduced the level of meds to cover the pain, but they no longer give me enough to feel comfortable all of the time. I am worried that I will no longer be able to hold down my job if they cut my meds any lower. I only get 90 Norco's a month now and I am using less than they prescribe me just in case they cut me off completely. I get really depressed when I think about the fact that I can't even sleep if I have zero pain control. My leg just hurts so bad no position is comfortable. Maybe I feel like the medical profession is abandoning me and is not going to help me to function any longer. I do go through good weeks and bad weeks. Last two weeks I didn't even have energy to cook food. I worked my three days and then rested all day for the four off days, and even that didn't make me feel better. Usually it takes me two full days off to feel strong again after my three work days. On bad weeks, I do not recover and only am able to work again due to the pain meds. I don't really know what to say to my docs as I am kind of upset with things. I do monitor everything and will seek help if there is a serious problem though. 

[Pistol]

I am so sorry @blizzard2014 that you are having problems with pain again ( or still ). My father had severe phantom pain in his amputated arm and was on strong pain meds all of his life. In his older years he would hoard them ( by taking less on a daily basis ) and lived in fear of having unbearable pain attacks. Once he had so much pain that he broke into his stash ( we did not know about the stash) and overdosed accidentally. He survived but it was a wake - up call. Eventually his PCP switched his pain meds and that helped. I wonder if maybe a SWITCH of pain meds would be in order? My B-I-L has a bad back and is on chronic pain meds for years, he takes a different one about every 6 weeks. This has helped avoid needing to increase the meds since it does not cause tolerance as quickly. He mostly can tolerate his pain with this regimen. Have you discussed how you feel with your pain specialist? Living with chronic pain and also in fear of getting worse pain is hard. -- The change in meds could explain your flu-like symptoms and this sense of doom you are describing but you should still get it checked. 

[blizzard2014]

11 minutes ago, Pistol said:

I am so sorry @blizzard2014 that you are having problems with pain again ( or still ). My father had severe phantom pain in his amputated arm and was on strong pain meds all of his life. In his older years he would hoard them ( by taking less on a daily basis ) and lived in fear of having unbearable pain attacks. Once he had so much pain that he broke into his stash ( we did not know about the stash) and overdosed accidentally. He survived but it was a wake - up call. Eventually his PCP switched his pain meds and that helped. I wonder if maybe a SWITCH of pain meds would be in order? My B-I-L has a bad back and is on chronic pain meds for years, he takes a different one about every 6 weeks. This has helped avoid needing to increase the meds since it does not cause tolerance as quickly. He mostly can tolerate his pain with this regimen. Have you discussed how you feel with your pain specialist? Living with chronic pain and also in fear of getting worse pain is hard. -- The change in meds could explain your flu-like symptoms and this sense of doom you are describing but you should still get it checked. 

My pain is mostly aggravated by standing and working. In all honestly, I should not be doing a physically demanding job. But I have a hard time also sitting in a regular chair as well. The a pain comes even faster from sitting in a chair. I manage a lot of my pain by elevating my legs for most of the day and also by laying down. If I were to work more, or even work in an office sitting in a regular chair with my legs touching the floor all day, I would need more meds. I only get pain attacks every once in a while where it feels like my calf is being ripped, but meds fix it. Mostly the pain is a pressure, burning, squeezing pain. Without meds it is bad. I mean, I would be really distraught. It's not as severe as your father though. It was only like that when I actually had the DVT, the pain would be stabbing in my thigh and wake me from a dead sleep. I'm going to see another vascular surgeon and that makes me upset too because the other one told me there is nothing he could do for me.  

[JimL]

When I did the TTT I had it bad. I could feel the syncope coming and then I was out. I try to limit my being up no more than 30 minutes at a time and pay attention to the signs. When the HR gets high, I get antsy/dread.  

[Outaker]

Blizzard. You need to take 5htp or go on Zoloft in my opinion. You need your synapses drained of norepinephrine- 

THese are just my opinions- 

Can you do the clonidine patch? I know you take the pills. 

I am trying a new Herb to see if it helps. Rauwolfia - 

 

 

[blizzard2014]

12 hours ago, Outaker said:

Blizzard. You need to take 5htp or go on Zoloft in my opinion. You need your synapses drained of norepinephrine- 

THese are just my opinions- 

Can you do the clonidine patch? I know you take the pills. 

I am trying a new Herb to see if it helps. Rauwolfia - 

 

 

Outaker, I used to not be able to stand without the Clonidine, now it works too well. I stopped taking it because it was throwing my sitting BP down to 86/60. I was on .2 mgs originally, then bouncing back and forth between .1.5 mgs and .1 mgs, then winter came and I stopped using it. I will probably need it again now that summer is on the way. 

[JimL]

5 hours ago, FileTrekker said:

I feel like this every day at some point or another. Or all of it.

I think it is Anxiety in my case as my heart is constantly flip flopping around and bothering me.

Have you tried cognitive behavioral therapy?

[JimL]

1 hour ago, FileTrekker said:

I am in the middle of it currently.

Cool. Does the therapist do EMDR? 

[JimL]

3 hours ago, FileTrekker said:

Never heard of that.

Did it work for you?

It helps people with PTSD and trauma. I did it before I had POTS. I think it could help you. Some therapist's that do CBT do EMDR. If your therapist is in the Albert Ellis school, they know what it is.