denabob Posted March 5, 2004 Report Share Posted March 5, 2004 I feel like a fool for what I'm about to say but as I read "bad day" I realize that this is the place for it! I'm crashing off my med early this month and I know what's coming. So do my children and my four year old looked at me tonight before she went to bed and said " I dont want you to be sick mommy because then I'll have to go to mamaw's and I miss you " She sometimes has to go for about a week until I can get my shot and get strong again. I finally can accept how my body betrays me but I am NOT doing a good job accepting how it betrays my girls!!!! I'm a single mom and I thank God for my parents but I feel like a failure when I cant care for my daughter alone. When my oldest is in school I'm afraid to be alone with my youngest. She saw me pass out once and thought I died ( just imagine how that was!) I'm getting ready to move in with my boyfriend in June and he's great , he's been to most of my appointments and seen most of my tests so he understands ( as much as possible) just how bad it can be. I worry that I'll be adding alot to him he's 13 years older than me so his kids are pretty much grown. Of course he wont be able to help much when I'm down because he has to work but I have a hard time recieving ANY help.How do we get past feeling like an inconvienience to everyone around us? Or is it just me who feels this way? I'm so afraid of being a burden for the rest of my life.I guess this is me feeling sorry for myself but thanks for letting me! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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