Bigskyfam Posted March 18, 2015 Report Share Posted March 18, 2015 I've had my dog longer than I've had my diagnosis of dysautonomia. Yet it feels like I've had dysautonomia longer. For 3 weeks we've watched our 5 year old dog deteriorate. Pain, not himself... While doctors were left scratching their heads for he didn't look like he was suffering. He took a turn overnight and we got the news that he had an aggressive cancer with no chance if survival. We said goodbye today. My heart hurts literally and figuratively. My companion on horizontal days is gone. While I lay here trying to compose my self and system, I'm reminded that I have an invisable illness and I do have limitations. The grief and stress is great. My vitals don't lie. What I am thankful for is my husband who helped me to the vet to the car and to my bed and who helped me tell our kiddos. He's a strong man. Fluids, rest and time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katybug Posted March 18, 2015 Report Share Posted March 18, 2015 Bigsky!I am so so sorry! I've had similar struggles with a kitty and, almost with my horse yesterday. It is an undescribable heaviness on your heart and I can only say that I believe all my and your beautiful fur babies are all together now, playing with and taking care of each other, the way they took care of us. Know that I have shed a tear for you and your sweet boy today. Take care of yourself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dancer65 Posted March 18, 2015 Report Share Posted March 18, 2015 So sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved dog, they are wonderful at knowing when you are ill and staying by your side. big hugs Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MomtoGiuliana Posted March 18, 2015 Report Share Posted March 18, 2015 So sorry. That is so very hard. Hugs. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SarahA33 Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 Hi bigsky,So sorry that you are going through this right now. It's so difficult as our pet's become part of our family. Take care during this time..Thinking of you and your family... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raisin Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 Hi Bigskyfam. I am so sorry for your loss. I know how they are our family members and the pain is big. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemxoxo Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 I'm so sorry for your loss. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sideofsalt Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 Bigskyfam, I'm so sorry for your loss today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
imapumpkin Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 So sorry for your loss. Sending positive thoughts your way. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dizzyallie Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 Sorry to hear this. Our pets give us so much don't they. Especially when we are ill. They are a godsend. It would be very hard to lose one so close. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kkb1216 Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 I am so very sorry. Nothing will replace the place your furbaby held in your heart. I wish you everything wonderful, and send positive thoughts your way. Rest, grieve and know he's waiting for you on the other side of the rainbow bridge.-K Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
corina Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 I'm so sorry Bigsky, that must be so tough. Sending warm thoughts your way Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeforeTheMorning Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 Bigskyfam, I am so sorry! Sending you a hug. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gjensen Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 I am sorry Bigsky. They can and do become family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
E Soskis Posted March 19, 2015 Report Share Posted March 19, 2015 I'm so sorry about the loss of your canine family member - I often feel that our pets love us more than our human family - I wish you peace, sweet memories, and cleansing tears. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Psalm 23 Posted March 20, 2015 Report Share Posted March 20, 2015 I am so sorry for your loss Bigskyfam. My heart breaks for you. I understand your pain as I lost my horse to colic a number of years ago. Losing our four legged family members is just devastating. I'm praying peace and comfort for you. Janet Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bigskyfam Posted March 20, 2015 Author Report Share Posted March 20, 2015 Thank you all so much. Everything has been so hard with my symptoms. Today was tough. Got through it. Msg soon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TWynnB Posted March 20, 2015 Report Share Posted March 20, 2015 I lost my 3 yr old pup a couple of years ago to cancer. I tried to keep in mind I gave her a wonderful life doing what she loved best - running in the mountains. I also gave her the gift of a peaceful passing - I think they're not meant to suffer. My daughter, who was 7 at the time, asked me if dogs go to heaven. I told her I'd like to think so. She said, "well mom, isn't heaven perfect?". I responded - "that's what they say". And she said, "well then, there has to be dogs there if heaven's perfect".Out of the mouth of babes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Goschi Posted March 21, 2015 Report Share Posted March 21, 2015 I feel with you, Bigskyfam! Had a similar experience with my cat a couple of years ago...Your beloved dog is already in heaven now - feeling no pain, he is healthy and happy!And he will always gently take care for you from where he is now! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Libby Posted March 21, 2015 Report Share Posted March 21, 2015 My heart breaks for you. I lost my first dog a year and a half ago and my heart still aches for her. Eventually, you'll be able to smile at the memories without crying at the loss. Stay strong. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrsAccashian Posted March 24, 2015 Report Share Posted March 24, 2015 I am so sorry. I know how important our furbabies are when we are not feeling well. They are not only family but caregivers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jszesnatjr Posted March 26, 2015 Report Share Posted March 26, 2015 So sad.. I am truly sorry Bigsky Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sue1234 Posted March 27, 2015 Report Share Posted March 27, 2015 Awww, sorry for your loss. What a rough time for you. Just post here if you need to "talk", as there are lots of listeners here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tinkerbella Posted March 28, 2015 Report Share Posted March 28, 2015 I'm so very sorry to log on tonight and read about your loss of your dear dog. When we are sick they bond with us in a very unique way. My boy saved my life one night when the line from my port's iv severed and I was bleeding out all over my bed room floor in the middle of the night. I was sound asleep, but he wouldn't Stop barking till I woke I saw what was going on. There is a wonderful video online called the rainbow bridge. Grab a bunch of tissues and watch it. It's beautiful, but will make you cry good tears knowing one day you will meet again. I wish I coulld find a man who could love me like my dog does. UNCONDITIONALLY! I will say a special prayer for you right now. Blessings- bellaMia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bigskyfam Posted April 10, 2015 Author Report Share Posted April 10, 2015 Thank you guys. It was too hard and lonely without a furry companion. We were blessed to be asked to be a part of a new furry friends life. He is a two year old male terrier mix that was trained in the prison system in the states. He knows basic commands and is as loyal and helpful as they come. While he isn't a certified assisting dog, he is a smart intune little guy with lots of love and laughs to offer. Which was an easier process than obtaining a service dog and a rewarding one since he's touched so many lives in a positive way Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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