I know what you're going through. I was at the top of my profession, graduate degrees etc. Make sure as you go through the LTD process that you know what is in all of your medical records and that all your Drs know that you are in the process of applying/getting approved. It's an overwhelming process, to be sure, but it is necessary for your future. Honestly, I used the application process to help get through the grieving process for my former life. I got really anal with it and got my frustrations out that way. Felt like I was accomplishing something again. xoxo